A bittersweet decision

I've struggled with a decision over the last month of so, and finally made it. While I know it's right for me, for us, right now, it still makes me a bit sad.

I've asked to be phased off the schedule at the second job, the part-time gig at the wonderful locally owned children's toy store. When I decided to pick up a part-time job in addition to my full-time job, I knew I'd be lucky if I could go back to the store; I'd managed one of their locations for a couple of years when I worked there full-time. I always said it would be the perfect part-time job.

And, it is. Playing games, wrapping presents, playing with kids.

But I found myself trying to balance my full-time job, my part-time job, my life responsibilities, the adoption, marriage and more. There were so many balls in the air that I wasn't doing a good job with any of them, I feared.

The wonderful locally owned toy store has responded wonderfully. They are hugely supportive and both the manager and the owner have gone out of their way to make me feel better about our decision for me to concentrate on home and family right now. It makes me feel even luckier but just a little more sad. Going back felt like going back to family and leaving (again) now feels like leaving family.